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school reopens and it's so boring...no time to decor my blog oso...tons of hw and tests waiting for me...yucks... i haven been in good mood these days...though i smile and laff but after that i will go back to myself again... maybe it will take beri long for me to get over it... not feeling heartbroken when tinking of him is simply impossible.. anyway if he finds out that i'm so miserable he'll be even more guilty... but i'm not blaming him for anything anyway... but this could haf been prevented right frm the beginning.

he cant face me...and he made me cant face him too. we are as good as strangers. where have all our fun gone? we were beyond frenz and now we are worse than frenz. it's juz too big a difference for me to accept. so hard to mend my heart. people say " the best way to forget sum1 is to love sum1 " it works for me but not now coz i realize maybe i'm those kind of person hu can onli love 1 person in my entire lifetime.

haven been so sad b4...have been crying for 20 days so far? the usual happy-go-lucky me has been killed by the word love. i'm not as xiao1 sa3 as b4 oredi... it's hard to believe onli 7 mths and i'm lyk this oredi.. i'm nv lidat b4...i can even get over a relationship which last for 1 yr in 10 days. i woodn't mind dying for him coz wifout him my life has oredi gone plain. i wonder if he is sad at all? he doesn't tell me wad he feels and he claim that i dunno.. of coz i dunno la. but i have more things to thank him than angry wif him. this isn't anyone's fault....... nobody wans it to turn out lyk that........ i can onli blame god for fooling me....giving me him and taking him away lyk i dun haf feelings. maybe it's my retribution anyway, to make me understand how it feels lyk to be ditched.

so unlucky loh... tot i haf found sum1 hu is willing to take care of me "forever"... but all turns out blank. but i hope that god will grant my little wish to make us good frenz again... so at least i'm not that sad missing him lyk siao. i wan to find the fastest and easiest way to forget everything coz it's so slow for time to do the work and by the time i can forget him, i might haf oredi be dead missing him.

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